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Tuesday, 03 November 2009

  • MetamorphMe

    Over the space of a year and a bit, I've learnt:

  • I'm less sure of myself and more sure of Grace
  • The 'right' way isn't always the best way. That new inventions exist because someone lost the user's manual.
  • Just because you're young doesn't mean you don't know better.
  • People rather complain than change.
  • If you mean something, put it into action.
  • When you tell me to shut up, it's probably a good time to.
  • People who are negative are also surprisingly self-centred. And it's ok if we didn't hang out with them so much.
  • That I need to practice saying no. AND sleeping is NOT a waste of time.
  • That friends make a whole lot of difference. And friends come in different shapes and sizes.
  • It's not my job to be perfect. It's my job to improve. Hence, I shouldn't take criticism so hard.
  • Steamboat
    You really are a good teacher.

    Ok, let's get married.

Currently
This Is It
By Michael Jackson
Listening to it in my head
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Thursday, 17 September 2009

  • It just kills me


    "Stay with you? What for? Look at us, we're already fightin'"

    "Well that's what we do, we fight... You tell me when I am being an arrogant son of a bitch and I tell you when you are a pain in the ass. Which you are, 99% of the time. I'm not afraid to hurt your feelings. You have like a 2 second rebound rate, then you're back doing the next pain-in-the-ass thing."

    "So what?"


    "So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day. Will you do something for me, please? Just picture your life for me? 30 years from now, 40 years from now? What's it look like? If it's with him, go. Go! I lost you once, I think I can do it again. If I thought that's what you really wanted. But don't you take the easy way out."

    It could have been the turning point for me.
    I also have a weird take on romance.


Friday, 24 April 2009

  • Freedom means responsibility—that’s why most people are afraid of it.


    I found this quoted on a work portal and thought how curious. In reflex my mind went, that's silly, surely they are on opposite ends of the imaginary spectrum

    When we say "I want to be free!" we are saying we wish we could make all the choices free from necessity, coercion or constraints; but are we also wishing we can relinquish responsibility for the choices that we make or avoid the repercussions of our choices or actions?

    Because we live in a world of limited freedom and constraints of universal and civil laws, we often hear remarks like
    "I wanted to, but couldn't because..."
    "I couldn't help it..."
    "I tried, but somehow..."

    As it stands we are subject to laws, circumstance, human frailty.. As I pondered on the logic of the statement, I realised that freedom is something you give yourself. We who think we are not free, are not free because sometimes we want to do something stupid but don't want to sign under it, pick up the tab for it, advocate it, reap the result of it or simply put, take responsibility of it.

    Even with laws and social rules, there are countless examples of people who defy them and don't play by them. The results range from the heroic and extraordinary to the tragic. It's the acceptance of the responsibility that comes with our choices that helps us on the path to true freedom.

    • If I want to drive at 200km/h but it's against the law, and I don't want to get a speeding ticket. Then I am not free. Stupid law.
    • If I want to drive at 200km/h but it's not against the law, then I would assume I'm free to do so. Unless I'm worried about the law of life and death in the event I drive off the edge into a ravine. But if I'm not afraid to die, because God has defeated that law, then technically I'm free to drive at 200km/h.
    • If I don't want to drive at 200km/h and want to drive in a safe and sensible manner, I'm certainly free to do so as there are no laws against that.

    Sooooooo, I will remember to remember that when I feel my freedom impeded, I should ask myself what stopping me? Having a law against murder has not yet stopped murders from taking place. (not that I'm contemplating murder). If you can pay the price you can get the goods. And ultimately, we all want the good goods.

    It suddenly seems more appealing to say 'hey i had no choice, i couldn't help it!' so we can choose something dumb and negotiate our way out of the dumbness we're gonna get back.

    But for those who understand the nature of the freedom package, step right up, it's yours to claim.

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    15-18So, since we're out from under the old tyranny, does that mean we can live any old way we want? Since we're free in the freedom of God, can we do anything that comes to mind? Hardly. You know well enough from your own experience that there are some acts of so-called freedom that destroy freedom. Offer yourselves to sin, for instance, and it's your last free act. But offer yourselves to the ways of God and the freedom never quits. All your lives you've let sin tell you what to do. But thank God you've started listening to a new master, one whose commands set you free to live openly in his freedom!

     19I'm using this freedom language because it's easy to picture. You can readily recall, can't you, how at one time the more you did just what you felt like doing—not caring about others, not caring about God—the worse your life became and the less freedom you had? And how much different is it now as you live in God's freedom, your lives healed and expansive in holiness?

     20-21As long as you did what you felt like doing, ignoring God, you didn't have to bother with right thinking or right living, or right anything for that matter. But do you call that a free life? What did you get out of it? Nothing you're proud of now. Where did it get you? A dead end.

     22-23But now that you've found you don't have to listen to sin tell you what to do, and have discovered the delight of listening to God telling you, what a surprise! A whole, healed, put-together life right now, with more and more of life on the way! Work hard for sin your whole life and your pension is death. But God's gift is real life, eternal life, delivered by Jesus, our Master.
    Romans 6:15-23, The Message

    22 But the Holy Spirit produces this kind of fruit in our lives: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23 gentleness, and self-control. There is no law against these things!
    Galatians 5:22, New Living Translation

Monday, 02 February 2009

  • "I would like to believe there is a God, but I think it is better to say I'm not sure there is a God and live your life with kindness and respect for people than to say I know there is a God and then do bad things,"
    ~ Rafael Nadal makes a point.

    I have been reading up on Nadal all day cos I think I've officially become a fan after rooting for him only casually at Roland Garros, more seriously at Wimbledon and then wholeheartedly yesterday at the Australian Open.

    So when I read the quote attributed to him (rightly or wrongly, I don't know) I thought, hmm.. what should I make of that?

    Old-fashioned evangelicals would admonish my train of thought saying "faith, is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen" and "without faith, it is impossible to please God". Well then, my personal challenge is like this. Is the mere 'faith' in the existence of God enough to make a freakin difference in our lives? Or must this faith also account for the way we live out our beliefs in relating to the Divine, incorporating His precepts, living out His purposes and seeking His will?

    To say 'there is no God' then live selfishly is surely more forgivable than saying 'I'm a Christian' and be totally indifferent to His will for creation. What sets us apart from the aetheist?

    Paul Bendor (or was it Bender? I forget) who spoke this Sunday made a good case in saying that God's Kingdom comes to all, whether or not we acknowledge it or not. Stories of people who have worked for rewards bigger than a paycheque, nice home, nice family, good standing in the community surely made me think of how I was going to live. They believed, but not only do they believe, they got on board and laboured towards God's mission.

    Could it be possible to have a few chance (grace?) encounters with Jesus, call him Lord, call yourself a Christian and yet not acknowledge the works and signs of His Kingdom in our daily lives? Evaluating myself, I'm beginning to think, fearfully, that yes, it may be highly possible.

    My faith is yes, there is a God. His name is Jesus.

    My challenge is - SO WHAT? How does it make me different from the unbelieving? How does my faith change me? Does it make my environment better or does it just make me a pious, inward-looking church-goer?

    1. How do I treat the people around me?
    2. What value do I place on material things vs. eternal things?
    3. What kind of importance do I put on following the Architect's plan vs. doing it my way?
    4. How am I caring for the environment? Animals?
    5. Does my life's work contribute to God's will and design for his Kingdom or subtract from it?

    This sounds serious. I don't think I can be bothered with any of the above if I have to muster my own resolve and righteousness to do it. I can only rely on the free-flowing Grace.

    Maybe I call it a day with the Nadal-lusting and go spend some time with God. What a plan. 

    "Let temporal things serve your use...but the eternal be the object of your desire" ~ Thomas a Kempis
    Currently
    Year of the Gentleman
    By Ne-Yo
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Tuesday, 11 November 2008

  • THE POWER OF ONE

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    Change. We all dream it but few of us effect it.

    In recent weeks, talk of change was unavoidable what with the political climate of America on the brink of an overhaul. Climate change, political change, change of heart, change of mind. It is exciting and uneasy. So often a call for change that has gathered momentum over time with followers amounting to the hundreds and thousands would be received with overwhelming zeal. Not so at the pioneering stages. *I recently made a shortsighted remark about what good candlelight vigils could amount to, I take it back*

    That's why celebrity endorsements are such an amazing marketing tool. Want consumers to change from their existing choice of product to your new unknown alternative? Get someone famous, influential, beautiful, experienced on board to say some nice things. Everyone can use a good spin doctor.

    We often pick up on the winds of change much later in the process...failing to see the upward battle, the sweat and tears and the challenges surmounted to bring about news of hope and of new things.

    Setting out to inspire change to an air of complacency and self-centredness, my friends joined their hearts to work on a Christmas project of hope. Not as a means of parading their art but as a catalyst of change in attitudes towards sharing, togetherness and reaching out. While many gave a pat on the back, a thumbs up and an encouraging 'good on ya', involvement that required self sacrifice came scarcer and colder.

    It is only when met with negativity and  mild opposition, that the difficulty of the task dawned on me. Filled with senseless joy and awareness of my own little involvement, I felt the bits of depression surrounding me in the past weeks snap away. I was on a mission to help mould a 'stupid' thing into something 'wonderful'.

    With one word, you could tear something down in the heart of another.
    It takes one more unbelieving juror to throw out an impending conviction.
    One detractor to demoralise a taskforce.
    One kind word to make a person's day.
    A moment of open heart to change the course of your own life.
    A heartfelt actor to capture an audience.
    One vote to strengthen one party and weaken the other, by one vote.

    I am one. Where do I cast my ballot?

    If we fail, we'd get up and do it again. If it is God's will that we succeed, then let's make some space in the bandwagon. I vote YES TO CHANGE.


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